disappear EP // 2015

//sunday//
sometimes i find myself
in an awful place
but i can pretend
 that i am not there
 and i disappear
 then i am fine again
 sometimes at night
 i feel such awful pain
 in my knees and my feet
 and i just cant sleep
 so i will pretend
 that my limbs are not there
 and they disappear
 and i am fine again
 i am hiding
 can you see?
 i am vanishing

//sweep//
you can sweep away the things
you’d rather no one will see
and you
bury me
and i can’t breathe
will you
unbury me
cause i can’t breath
too much time spent underground
helped me see certain things
how you
bury me
and i can’t breathe
will you
unbury me
cause i can’t breathe
and i
can see
right through
you but
you can’t
see me

//receiver//
don’t wanna pick up the phone
cause i’d rather not know
don’t wanna pick up the phone
she said
her sister was sick
something spread
inside of her
she’s sleeping
she’s cold
like we all
will be
one day
don’t wanna pick up the phone
cause i’d rather not know
don’t wanna pick up the phone
she said
her sister was dead
and i said
i understand

//open//
if you close
this door behind me
i can say
anything
but if you leave
it open
i can’t say
anything at all
sometimes
i am grateful
but sometimes
i’m not
sometimes
i am brave
but sometimes
i’m not
enough

audible // 2013

//fair//
this can’t be right
but you said that it’s alright
as you watched your life
flash before your eyes
you said that it would be alright
what do you
see when you
close your eyes
close your eyes
for the last time
and how many times
will i
turn and walk
right out
of the room
for the last time
for the last time
this can’t be right

//goal//
i will be there
nowhere
or somewhere in between
i want endless roads
to nowhere
and i want sleeplessness
for nothing
and I want to be
sleeping on floors with strangers
with unlocked doors

//audible//
you say that sleeping
brings you closer to memory
i try to remember
but i want to rewrite
to rewrite history
a little dagger
just for display
but it still brings pain
you’re a satellite
way up high
what does it read on me
closer to a memory

//hut 1//
i promise not to make
a promise to someone
so close
and so close to their grave
too tired to stand on last lags
we put people
in pretty things
when we put them
into the ground
where are you now
that your body’s under the ground

//forfeit//
winners never quit
because they always win
wouldn’t it be nice
to not even have to try
cause you try
and you try
and you fail
every time
and you try again
why try again
you try again

//extra point//
instrumental

//time out//
and nothing’s lost but time
and it is finally time
to give up
i’m giving it up
my only chance
at moving forward
and even if I get nowhere
nothing’s lost but time

//blackout//
i think i needed
some time in silence
scared shitless
and shaking
and needing
every second of it
but can you see me
it’s dark

//red zone//
i had the worst year
you couldn’t wait
to see me get out of here
it’s not your fault
it’s not your fault
and it’s not mine
no it’s not mine
let’s not do that again

//turnover//
it all means nothing
add a title
it still means nothing
to me
take it away
no less
still nothing
more coffee
more tea
sign the paper
take it away
it all means nothing
lose a title
it still means nothing

//return//
it’s dark and cold
over there
it’s dark and cold
but not here
i’ve got you
beside me
and we can jump on a plane
and get there in a day
but it’s not cold because i
i’ve got you by my side

split 7″ with plaids // 2013

//down the field//
the children
they are scared
when the wind blows
this city has things
that blow over in the wind
and they brace themselves
for something
unpleasant

split tape with square business // 2012

//hut 1//
i promise not to make
a promise to someone so close
and so close to their grave
too tired to stand on last legs
we put people
in pretty things
when we put them
into the ground

//hut 3//
don’t wanna pick up the phone
cause i’d rather not know
don’t wanna pick up the phone
she said her sister was sick
something spread inside of her
she’s sleeping
she’s cold
like we all will be one day
she said her sister was dead
i said i understand

//hike//
i could think about anything
but i just think about everything
going wrong
or getting lost
or fucking up
or getting broken
but i won’t change
cause i don’t want to
and i don’t have to
because i love you
and you love me too

the draft LP // 2011

//sudden death//
i am moved from it
remove me from this
someone made a comparison
it is a tragedy
accidental
i moved toward it
and it moved toward me
i am moved from this
remove me from this
let’s not save ourselves
let’s not save anyone at all

//incomplete//
you make me seem so fickle
because you just disappear
the way you make me feel
i have never known
because you come and go
get out
we don’t want you here

//safety//
you were
on the ground
not found
i’ll build a nest for you
i’ll build the best for you
i’ll use whatever i can find
a little piece of string
or twine
i’ll use whatever i can find
a piece of my own hair
because
i’ll build a nest for you
i’ll build the best for you

//lambaeu leap//
lambaeu knows
the lambaeu leap
and up
and up
we jump
but here comes
here comes
the other team

//x’s and o’s//
a bathroom
i call my own
is it wrong?
where should i be?
a cue that
i call my own
is it wrong?
when i
call about
the weather
i mean it
is it cold?
has it snowed?
i miss my home
that can’t be
that can’t be wrong
where should i be?

//halftime//
i think that i
could give it all up
right now
i think that i
should let it all go
right now
what would you do?
if three hundred eyes
looked at you
i can’t tell
if they’re looking up
or down
i think that i
could give it all up
right now
i think that i
should let it all go
right now

//sideline//
cambridge
your brains are too big
but they match
the size of your hearts
sitting on a bench
i always find
what i’m looking for
or an alternative version
if that was you
then i wouldn’t know what to do

//hail mary//
blue and white signs
lead me to where you lay
in your hospital bed
i think
this could be
the house of god
brown and white signs
lead me to where you’ll stay
in your permanent bed

//flood//
there is so much
that i can’t say
so just assume
this is about you
there are only
two things that can
make me feel so low
so just assume
this is about you
when words fill up
to an overflow
there is nothing
that can tell you so

//mouthguard//
put on a mouthguard

away game 7″ // 2010

//away game//
you crossed
the prime meridian
their hands reach up
and you lay your hands
on their tiny heads
you crossed
the line this time

//xxl//
what were you thinking?
the floor is sinking
what can i do
when the floor falls beneath you
we build
small buildings
we put
small children in them
we could feel the ground
what if next
the roof came down

split 7″ with empire! empire! // 2009

//fightin’ pheonix//
i can’t read that formula
i can’t read that word problem
i can’t read that poem
and the scientists
and the mathematician
what about the literal
for the illiterate
it seems as though
we forget
why we are here

first down demo ep // 2009

//dream big//
dear student
you shot someone on my mom’s doorstep
you left him there and my sister found him dead
on my way to work one day, i saw black
broken bodies lay on the pavement
this is what i see when i sleep
this is what i see when i dream
i can’t forget what i see
dear student
you shot someone on my mom’s doorstep
you left him there and my sister found him dead

//touchdown (dance)//
if i
put my head to the floor
and close my eyes
i can hear
i can hear the sound of the vibrations
coming from below in the basement
and if i
close my eyes
and put my head to the floor
i can hear
i can hear the sound of the vibrations
coming from below in the basement
that was one year ago
there are no stairs
that lead
that was one year ago
there are no stairs that lead below
this city was built on mud
fucking mud

//catch the spirit//
who goes to a peninsula?
its a land of sleep and needles
i know that state
injections to stay alive
and some to die
but you’ve gone to that peninsula
its your land of sleep and needles

//first down//
every time that you breathe in
you’re hoping that when you breathe out
you are hoping when you exhale
something really profound will come out
and i hope that you get a black lung
and every time that you go out
you put you put on a costume
you put on a costume
something that your friends will think
is real cool
and i hope that you get a black lung
i hope that you get two of them

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